Sunday, July 11, 2010

Amazing Life : The Teddy Bear Love

It was the 6th of June. I had kept a memory block in my head stored the previous night to wake up before 9 O'clock. The movie was at 10 or I thought so. It was the first time I told her 'I'll see you tomorrow', now that was special. As any typical guy would, I had myself prepared for the first time I will see her. I bought some special things for her. They were the exact things I had in my mind, and I'm thankful to Manix and Gade for helping me select those. Anyway I had a beautiful bracelet to give her. It had little 5 corner stars linked together like a chain. She liked stars :) and of course it would have been a waste if I had not given her any poems. So I wrote two poems for her. One was something I had written previously called 'Treasure Hunt' which revolves around two people who are searching for their treasure knowing that it exists somewhere. The other one was called 'Pingu Love'. Pingu is the little animated penguin who I used to love during my childhood and lets leave the details of that poem private :)

So as I woke up I looked at my wall clock reading 10 minutes to Seven. Hmmm Early wake up for a Sunday, I pressure that was due to the big anticipation that was stuck in my head. I slowly got ready after doing the usual morning routine. I was specifically asked to wear a long sleeve shirt rolled up, so I chose a blue shirt and beige pants to go with it. I had told my mother that I was going to watch a film with the guys from work and she must have thought I was gay to dress up so much for it, but of course she had it figured out. Motherly instinct cannot be beaten at all costs and never should it be underestimated.

The bus ride to Kolpetty was smooth. I had reached Liberty at 9.30 am. Which then I realized that the movie was at 10.30 am. But I saw a huge queue was about to build up. So I got in line behind 10 or so couples. It was 10 no sooner,the entertainment began. An old beggar started to go up and down the queue singing golden oldies of Ceylonese pop songs. Not normal songs, but he was doing a horrible job at H.R. Jothipala and then later he took on Milton Perera but things got ugly when he started to sing Bombay Merry Hai. Luckily for me I had reached the ticket counter by then. I had to ask panchi how may tickets she needed but I didnt get any answer so I just bought tickets for ourselves. Since a bunch of her friends were also coming I was feeling a little odd.

Then I got that message that I had to buy tickets for the other girls as well. But since I had exited the queue by that time, I had to go to the back of the mile long line of couples. Suddenly it hit me that I hadn't seen her before (Kind of silly I know). I was imagining her picture as she said that she would be wearing a brown color top. As I was picturing her I saw a green color car stop in front of Liberty and stepping out of the car the girl that I had pictured perfectly. She had a nice smile and the hair tied into a ponytail. Her dark eyes shining and the big ears were there right in front of my eyes. The shape of her face was very long, just like mine. But the texture of her skin was no where near my skin as it was the perfect color. If I had ever dreamt of a girl, she had everything.

Once she got out of the car she walked back towards the queue and saw me. A smile as big as the Sydney Harbor Bridge shone one her face she quickly looked away in an abundance of shyness falling out of her face. Oh I loved that sight. Once the hussle and bussle of the ticket business was sorted out we decided to go into the theater. We bought the gallery tickets and since we went in after 10.30 most seats were occupied and had to go to the further area of the seating system. As I went in I asked her 'How are you' and she shyly said something which I didnt hear. I could clearly see this little thing was nervous..hell even I was nervous. So we sat down and got settled. Shrek came on the screen for the 4th time and for us, this time was the life size version.

The movie went on, but there were several Oscar nominee movies inside my head, to name a few 'How do I start to talk with her..' 'Will she be scared of me' 'I want to hold her hand..is it too early?' Sigh!! Mother Earth or who ever created us humans sure knows entertainment. Just letting that be I watched the film for about 10 minutes then I was looking at her face, since that was far more interesting. Oh boy wasn't she feeling shy..my girl :) Soon the interval came and I got ready to give my gifts for her. She also had a huge bag. So I asked her what was in it. She opened the bag and took out a huge parcel. I was a little surprised and also was worried whether she has spent any money on it. Then the movie ended and we strolled out of the theater. I pulled on her bag and since she was extra lightweight she almost fell back!! Once we were in the corridor of the Liberty we realized it was raining. So we had stay inside for a while and she took out the chocolate I gave and shared it with all the girls and me :)

After that we decided to walk around the empty liberty plaza. We managed to spend some quality talk time there and also we were peeping into the empty closed shop windows. There was some comfort that she bought. I had met her two hours ago, but it seemed like I had known her for years. Just as we walked along together I was contemplating how many times I had pictured this moment in my head. This is the girl I want for life. I just hope and prayed that she thought the same. The minutes we spent together for the first time will stay in my head for many years if not forever. I could feel the affection she had for me. This was the first time that someone made me feel so important that I had to look after myself for her. This girl was special and she was mine.

Soon we felt hungry and decided to go to Majestic City. We crossed the road to get the 100 or 101 bus and we then arrived at MC. KFC seemed to be the best place for lunch and the eating area didn't have the privacy we sought for. We ordered food and then sat down to eat. She ordered a huge submarine and I knew she wouldn't be able to finish it on her own. Surprisingly she ate 90% of it and gave the rest to me. I was full after mt own meal but I took a bit of her left overs. That made me feel like a couple for the first time. Once the submarines were done she fed me a few chips and as I was talking with someone else some mayo from my submarine was around my mouth and she quickly took a serviette and wiped my mouth. That was the first time anyone has done that for me and naturally I was surprised. But as I reminisce that moment, I always gather a smile and think about how much I will be looked after in the future.

Once again we took a brisk walk at MC and then got on a bus to go to Dehiwela. Her father was coming to Williams and I had stay hidden. Once we got there we said goodbye and just soon as I took a few steps away from her I needed to look back at her, I knew I wont get o see her for sometime and just wanted that last scene to be in my head.

Once I came home I took out the big parcel she gave. If anyone was standing next to me at that moment, they would have had a hard time stopping my lips hitting my ears. Inside was the cutest of teddy bears I have ever seen, and it smelt like its been in a garden of flowers for centuries. I held him close and smelt him more times than I could count. Surprises weren't finished as yet, there was a cute key tag and handmade birthday card for me as my birthday was the following week. It had little purple hearts all over it and a wish for me that would cherish for the rest of my life. Just when I thought I had everything I could get, there was a four page beautifully written letter. The handwriting was perfect and the words they spelled out drew a small tear.

I never thought I would be loved by someone so much. It was always that I would share my love and I was not expecting anything in return. But this time I was being loved and taken care of. This affection makes my life happy and content, it was as if I had everything I ever wanted for she loved me for who I am. I don't need to change or act different, since she adores me for my little idiosyncratic behavior.

In return I want to love her with the best of my effort and to protect her from anything and everything. I know she will stand by me when ever I need her, and my wish is to do the same :)

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Amazing Life: Day I saw an Angel

I knew she was somewhere..just waiting like me...thinking about the day that we may finally meet..but i guess neither of us thought that we might meet so soon...Anyway this story is going to one of those modern stories which wont be told by grandparents to their grandchildren..but its still going to be something I will never forget..

I love the song 'pale wasana r*nm*lee' i just like the melody, the lyrics..and for some reason i searched that lovely name on facebook..and there she was...with her chin on her hand..the cutest photo i've seen..I added her as a friend..and unlike most other profiles i was able to view it without being a friend..so i just took a glimpse at the pictures that were there...WOW!! they looked really attractive..SO i took a dare and sent her a message saying that i would like to get to know her..and that association there led us to 26th of January 2009...

I woke up to see if there were any big pimples on my face..because thats what happens when i am getting ready for something big..luckily no visible threats..but I did have to spend a considerable amount of time in the bathroom due to nervous bowels...i mean how can i not be nervous?? after 5 months of chatting and talking..experiencing the attraction from a distance, now its the real thing..obviously it was scaring me...

Since I study in Wellawatte I had to make sure I had ample time to get to a caravan near kolpetty..our morning lecturer was absent..but due to these crappy emails, she managed to send us the tutorial which we had to complete by 12..right..a deadline..i think I can make it, it had to be mailed to her by 12..and worst part is my unseen beauty queen said if we dont meet today then we wont meet forever!! my goodness!! so I started doin the excel NPV calculations..but the only calcutaion working inside me was her..I was structuring her face inside my head of how it will look like...i had no idea what to expect...I managed to complete the tutorial by 11.30..then the lecturer has sent another one which i had to submit by 5!! man this technology!!! so i had to get home soon to finish that..

I stepped out of IIT not knowing what to expect..and the fact that I didnt know whre her classes were, was bugging me real bad..but i knew it was somewhere close to kolpetty..so I got on a 100 route bus and headed for kolpetty...I saw her institute infront of a huge poster of shahruk taking a phone call..so i got down and waited outside..the time was 12.35..lot more time to wait..and it was kinda awkward..but i managed to slip out of the glimpses..and then at once out of nowhere bunch of my friends show up..and then they ask 'aaah umba moko methana' and stuff..i had no idea what to say..i shaped them and they left..thank god!!

then it was 1.10..few girls were coming out of the institute..at that point i wondered whether i would recognize her..but i think i just had to look for the prettiest girl to walk out the door..anyways after some time..a girl did walked out..i didnt see her face..but my heart was beating so loud i heard it say..'thats her'...

she started walking towards kolpetty..i caught up to her and just started looking at her face..and then she recognized me..and my god!! what a sight!! no structured modeling could have made up that pretty smile ..the feeling I had in that instance was unexplainable..a feeling of victory...her hair was flowing like the dunhinda..and she had the most appealing perfume on..she was just IT!! she was soo shy..she covered her smile with her hands and was looking down..oh yes..this is what i've wanted so long to someone and pretty as that.. and my dream had come true..

I spoke something..now i cant remember what that was even..but i know it made her smile even more..It took sometime for me regain consciousness to realize i was walking along side her..something that i had dreamed since i was 16..to walk along with the prettiest girl..I asked her a few questions and she wasnt exactly responding..but i knew she was scared..good scared...then after a very dull but anxious walk, we reached kolpetty junction some of my best buddies were returning to the cima class after a carnival ice cream..and i told her to go along otherwise if they see..its not good..

After explaining to them that I had to go..I managed to get on the bus she had gotten into..luckily we were both taking the same route..when I got on the bus i saw there was an empty seat next to her..YES!! thank u!! and i went to her..'poddak ehata wenna'..and she was just so stern 'no'..i tried to convince her but..all in vain..I had a lot of things to say to her..its not easy when you have to turn your head around to talk to her as i had to sit in the seat infront of her..I asked a few silly questions and i realized that I didnt have any topic to talk to her about!! I was just wondering what she must be thinking..and I wanted to see her face..but I had to do a wierd turn inorder to do that..so I just stayed the way I was...

I had a poem..and also a really long crappy note to her..I knew if I gave it to her, it would be a big mess up..it was lame!! I must be listening to too much Norah Jones..anyway..after the bus jolted its way to rajagiriya I had to get off..I turned around and took a mental picture of her..She said this was our first and last meeting..I didn't respond..because I knew deep inside we are going to meet many times more...

So thats that..I just cant put the feeling I have for her to words..I hope she understand my feeling towards her..because I just cant keep her out of my head..everything I do connects to her..maybe its special..its the thing you have been dreaming of for long time....to see an angel :)

Monday, November 17, 2008

Waves..

The Repetitive breath..
of the ocean..
calls me to enjoy her
fathomed beauty..

Diving into her..
proudness..the danger..
the waves..
I, merely a shadow
among her great
black waters...

Silence..a passionate state
man has been abode with
to relinquish..
I succumb to her..
mystery..the sea..

I am reborn
from within the waves
as a new born..
takes the first breath..
I am pure and fresh..
Ready once again
to believe and breath..

Saturday, October 25, 2008

Love me too..

She had all the cravings
she fed you..profusely
with love and nutrition.
she felt you kick..
oh! how happy she felt..
she breathed for you..
she cried for you..
she sacrificed..for you..
she screamed..as loud as she can
she endured the pain..
but still she smiled..
she experienced the wonder of childbirth..
an enchanting procedure..
she heard you cry..
for the very first time
oh! how lucky she is..
she was the one..
who saw you for the very first time..
she felt you breath..
for the very first time..
she made you..

as I watch..and
I just hope..
that you love me too..

Monday, October 13, 2008

The Waltz

I danced with her today..
the waltz rhythm..coagulating our hearts..
the passion was overflowing..
every step..recalls a memory..
her hand in mine..
tightly locked..never letting go..
her first touch..
still etched in the crevasses
of our love..
the waltz played on..
it was then our eyes met..
the secrets we hid..poured out...
revealing us..naked..
the feeling of belonging..
yearned for more..
as if to answer,
the waltz was still moving..
our heads together
creating passage for
that ultimate kiss..
the seal..
the kiss..tender and dangerous..
leading to a world so exciting
and enchanting..
the forbidden world..
here it comes..the moment..
she..in my arms..
the eyes meet..climax..
its over..or has it just begun?
no time to ponder..
the waltz was over....

Monday, September 22, 2008

Sunday, September 21, 2008

wow..never seen you offline before!

Nope..never have i seen her..
funny isn't it? to feel this way..
to someone never seen..never spoken to..
is it destiny? i don't think so..
its a matter of time
she will come to me..
hopefully...
unless bound by a rope..
a rope which she fell in love with..
i accept it..she deserves it then..
but she could have told me...